HERE I TEAR, AGAIN

I thought I'd run away
Run
From all the pain I soaked
...Run from my tears
At your thought
Just that I gave you my all
All I ever had
But you hurt me most
It shed my skin
But it was hard
To start a new

The world spins fast
Am confused
It took me ages
To open new pages
But here I tear, again
Like you returned to haunt me
I thought
Our escapades were buried
Buried like broken bottles
Here I tear, again

I thought I'd run away
But pictures
Of your shoddy life
You run today
Hurt me..ow, they hurt me
Into tears that tear
Just why?
Why did you have to?
Why?
Why now do you pleasure
In salty seizures
That wound your soul?

I pray
Hard I tell God
Hard I want to heal
How bad I feel
I want to wipe these running waters
I want to be strong again
Please
Just don't haunt me
Go to some planet
Or come in another person's skin
Because I shrink
At the sight of your face
You hurt me...

ART AT ME.

I am a silken page
Yearning to be painted red
With harmonies
Of a thousand colour threads
An escape
From love's tormenting shreds

My arms stretch
In the making
Of a commitment pledge
Whilst peace I fetch
So my soul can belge

Art at me a feeling
Deepened drawings
Into the natural landscapes
Of my endearing world
Full of love's fallen tapes

Art at me a heart shape
And stick it hard
Inside my heart's safe
So I can beat again
With life's full phase

Oh,art at me...

BACK TO THE BEGINNING

Hear the silent echos
Flows of river egos
Pain that scorches
...A hungry anger that torches

Expressions that breed death
Tongues with foul breath
Blessed hands steal tithe
I bright
In solemn plight

Back to the beginning
A heaven of a haven
Would shores ever shiver
Oh there
Preachers would never differ
Love
The only water deciphered

Back to the beginning
On top of the world Eden
Now a rotten heathen
And then
Time would be a token deepened
Whoever ages
Would never ravage

Back to the beginning
The beginning of love
A feeling I starve
I would die to have
Where beauty
Is an inside spa
That sparkles
Like smooth fur
A soothing star

I yearn for the beginning...