HERE I TEAR, AGAIN

I thought I'd run away
Run
From all the pain I soaked
...Run from my tears
At your thought
Just that I gave you my all
All I ever had
But you hurt me most
It shed my skin
But it was hard
To start a new

The world spins fast
Am confused
It took me ages
To open new pages
But here I tear, again
Like you returned to haunt me
I thought
Our escapades were buried
Buried like broken bottles
Here I tear, again

I thought I'd run away
But pictures
Of your shoddy life
You run today
Hurt me..ow, they hurt me
Into tears that tear
Just why?
Why did you have to?
Why?
Why now do you pleasure
In salty seizures
That wound your soul?

I pray
Hard I tell God
Hard I want to heal
How bad I feel
I want to wipe these running waters
I want to be strong again
Please
Just don't haunt me
Go to some planet
Or come in another person's skin
Because I shrink
At the sight of your face
You hurt me...

ART AT ME.

I am a silken page
Yearning to be painted red
With harmonies
Of a thousand colour threads
An escape
From love's tormenting shreds

My arms stretch
In the making
Of a commitment pledge
Whilst peace I fetch
So my soul can belge

Art at me a feeling
Deepened drawings
Into the natural landscapes
Of my endearing world
Full of love's fallen tapes

Art at me a heart shape
And stick it hard
Inside my heart's safe
So I can beat again
With life's full phase

Oh,art at me...

BACK TO THE BEGINNING

Hear the silent echos
Flows of river egos
Pain that scorches
...A hungry anger that torches

Expressions that breed death
Tongues with foul breath
Blessed hands steal tithe
I bright
In solemn plight

Back to the beginning
A heaven of a haven
Would shores ever shiver
Oh there
Preachers would never differ
Love
The only water deciphered

Back to the beginning
On top of the world Eden
Now a rotten heathen
And then
Time would be a token deepened
Whoever ages
Would never ravage

Back to the beginning
The beginning of love
A feeling I starve
I would die to have
Where beauty
Is an inside spa
That sparkles
Like smooth fur
A soothing star

I yearn for the beginning...

Hunger, My Love

Rest upon my strong arm
Like a beautiful butterfly
In her ripe years
Yawn for my kiss
Like a snake hisses

Hunger, my love
For my warm hug
Hot affection
That makes we
A darling to see
Fight not your heart
It's with me that you wanna be

Hunger, my love
For a cherish feel
And peel
All the sorrows real
And paint me
With your flawless love flow
A passion
Deep like the salty ocean

Hunger, my love
Breathe
Be my heart's blacksmith
You alone are the mint
To my cold soul
My riddles' hint

Hunger, my love...

I Am An Empire

Wings fly by me

Am free

As far as I can see

Am small

But vast in all

I am an empire

Driven by passion

Am burning inside

With hope undefined

I cry in joy

I am an empire

My purpose a book

Long like life

Bigger than strife

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Searching out for the truth.

Curtains Down

It ended up ugly.She came home in an invisible body,placed a book that carried in it all the letters and cards I had sent her.I couldn't see the sense of all that crap.We are grown ups.We are supposed to behave like we really are.For the first time in a long while,I went out of control,picked up that phone and called her in untouchable rage.I was mad!Had I been too soft to her that she could manage to do such a thing because there's nothing I can do?So,is she feeling better now?I wonder if I could really have stood seeing her returning these things if we were face to face.Would I have swallowed it?She still brought all this on to herself.What was the motive of making up a story that held no water and imagine I would fall for it?

Love is funny.I still don't get it.We had been doing so well...well until I joined campus,then she changed.I think I have tried to be as understanding and tolerative as I can.But yesterday,things just went out of hand,and I didn't like it.I've been accused of forgetting to cater for her feelings.She did.Perhaps it's true because when am hurt I find myself only thinking about how am affected.I think I surely need to work on that.It's a loud whisper.She pushed me to the wall.I didn't mean to talk to her in that manner of anger and spoilt fashion.That's just not me.

So the curtains came falling,and she was still crying foul...a crying fall.She deleted me from her facebook friends in a few hours' time.We are no longer friends,but a piece of broken peaces.Heartbreak.

Walking Troubles

See their bodies wearing
Masks
Covered sins in skins
Walking troubles
Dungeon souls
Flawed instincts
A flood
Of coloured pretences
Violent preferences
And dirty references

Feel their faces smelling
The smiling
With hearts
Full of loathe
Hatred to the throat
Rains
Of false tears
Forced out
In pleasure of a search
For pity

See their black behinds
Coated chests
Braided hairs
And misplaced muscles
Parading the streets
Unanswered queries
Bitter truths shut
Below smelly armpits
Torn elbows

See their bright shadows talking
Blackmails
Unremorseful
Leisure dirty
Walking
Still working
See them
Walking adrift

Crying Love

Am breathing
A sunrise feeling
Streaming
Through my dreaming
Missing
Your sexy voice
A glitter
Torching my frail heart

I hadn't hoped
To be loved this much
So soon
Sometimes I pinch myself
Sometimes I think am on the moon
Sweet heart you bear
Full of tenderness and care
Has fell me in love
Like a heavy log
Tumbling from the sky

Your kisses
Oh,my love
Rain on my empty soul
Like a flowing spring
The passion you bring

Am laughing in tears
Because of this miraculous joy
You've brought into my life
Love
A feeling I'll forever cherish
And love to replenish
Without going selfish

I can love again
Without the fear of pain

Am crying
I love you